working anniversary

Today i was appraised by my boss.. as expected i just got the average grade of newbies.. well while we were talking. he said that ive been working for almost nine months now.. which made me think... HOLY #$#% i have been working for eight freaking months.. and today is my 8th month working anniversary...

i would never have thought that i could survive this job pass my probationary stage.. then pass my first working Christmas season... then now my 8 month anniversary.. this year has been a totally different learning experience for me..

but the most important question was.. how do i see myself this year.. L said that what i want to do this year would be the basis of my performance in my work.. i really hate it when he's right.. darn.. he said na kaya hindi ako nagexcel sa ginagawa ko for the past months is because im not serious about it.. to have your boss say that to you sounded really bad..

unfortunately i realized din whats keeping me from changing job.. im such a sucker for friendship that i dont want to leave my hsbc friends.. i know naman in a few months time eh maghihiwalay din kaming lahat.. some would find other jobs while others would be transferred to new dept while others would stay behind.. i dont want to be the one left behind thats for sure.