100th entry

after boring myself for months iam finally changing work.. well id still be in the same dept but different boss different teammates different job with same pay ata.. im thrilled to be changing job but not so thrilled about leaving my team and going into another one..

sabi ni L.. in two weeks daw.. i dunno what to feel.. im not even sure if it qualifies as something to tell my family about eh.. since i would still be working at almost the same level..

at least it would be easier for me to leave if i hate my new team.. @#$#(^&$@#

PSI

I went to this seminar due to constant nagging of friend K who absolutely adored the seminar when she went there for the first time that she had to invite people to experience it din.. i was totally planning to reason myself out of it.. im just not the seminar person much less an expensive seminar..

well being the undecisive person that iam i ended up feeling obligated to go.. it was a different kind of experience.. seminar was ok if i dont think about the hole in bank account.. people were great kahit na i just met a few people.. our faci was telling us to split up and find some more friends.. being the stubborn people we are. we reasoned out na at least we'd know more about each other which would lead to a more long lasting friendship.. hhe well for me.. medyo okay na naman ako sa mga kasama ko..

that's me M J L

M is the cute guy i was talking about.. he was awfully cute and nice... anyway, how old does he look? anyway he's much too old for my taste..

J is K's new "mu" really weird that i got along with him.. he's our batchmate in high school but then ni hindi ko siya nakilala...

L works for sen revilla.. hhe up girl na super achiever..

kim was the one who took the pic: )

training was more on finding who you are than leadership training per se.. it was pretty interesting except for the fact that super late sya and kakaantok minsan talaga.. i super tried to stay awake and not yawn but its physically and psychologically impossible.. we are not allowed to say what we did sa seminar but what i can say is it made me think say and do stuff that i wanted to do but is restricted because of fear and well awkwardness of it...

it was pretty nice to be busy and doing something other than work work work.. i feel that i was able to do something more worthwhile with my time hhe ganun ka walang tuturan work ko...

working anniversary

Today i was appraised by my boss.. as expected i just got the average grade of newbies.. well while we were talking. he said that ive been working for almost nine months now.. which made me think... HOLY #$#% i have been working for eight freaking months.. and today is my 8th month working anniversary...

i would never have thought that i could survive this job pass my probationary stage.. then pass my first working Christmas season... then now my 8 month anniversary.. this year has been a totally different learning experience for me..

but the most important question was.. how do i see myself this year.. L said that what i want to do this year would be the basis of my performance in my work.. i really hate it when he's right.. darn.. he said na kaya hindi ako nagexcel sa ginagawa ko for the past months is because im not serious about it.. to have your boss say that to you sounded really bad..

unfortunately i realized din whats keeping me from changing job.. im such a sucker for friendship that i dont want to leave my hsbc friends.. i know naman in a few months time eh maghihiwalay din kaming lahat.. some would find other jobs while others would be transferred to new dept while others would stay behind.. i dont want to be the one left behind thats for sure.